Hello everyone,
My name is Andy and I am new on here. I signed up for Reboot Nation because this week I have finally acknowledged to myself that I have a serious problem. It is a problem that I have struggled with for over four years now since 2016. I came here for help and I sit here typing all choked up with tears welling in my eyes. It is a problem that has for brief moments given me a thrill and pleasure to be followed by a never ending dread and anxiety that many times makes my heart hurt. I am addicted to Camgirls. And this is my story. It all started my senior year of college. It was December of 2016 and I was taking a break from studying for finals week. I was alone in my dorm as all my roommates were out. I was single so I didn't have a girlfriend to visit so like all 21 year old males I went onto Pornhub to relieve myself. As I was scrolling my curiosity got the better of me. At the top of the Pornhub page I clicked on the tab that read in white bold print, "LIVE CAMS." I had always noticed that tab every time I logged onto Pornhub but in the past I ignored it. But that night I decided to try something different. I clicked on the LIVE CAMS link and was greeted with a plethora of women ranging in age from 18-50+ from all over the world. All of them live on camera willing to do anything you pleased. For a single 21 year old virgin I felt I hit the jackpot. I picked out a young woman who on her profile said she was 19 and was from Russia. She was blonde and damn I still remember she was beautiful. This was my first time doing anything like this so a mixture of excitement and foolishness raced through my mind. We entered an exclusive chat session and we both masturbated together as I talked sexy to her and she moaned and played with herself. It was weird and thrilling to me and before I knew it I had capped out my maximum spending limit of around $200! I forget the exact amount but it was around that amount. I logged off thinking this was the first and the only time I would do something like this. I thought it was one of those things you try in college and move on. For others maybe but for me I had just stepped foot into a deep rabbit hole. |
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Hey, Andy!
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I had porn addiction, and it led to a psychotic break [fherehab.com], and I was getting worse and worse every day. And then I thought that I should focus not on sex, but on my affairs, which would give me pleasure and money. I saved up money for business and opened my own coffee company, and now my business is thriving because I have invested all my strength in it. I have hired the best employees I could find and paid them a decent salary. And I don't think about such problems anymore. I'm not interested in it. And when I managed to stop thinking about it, my life has improved, as well as my relationships with girls. By the way, don't watch pornography!
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